Being A Father

When I was young and growing up, I always thought I would be able to to do a much better job as a father than my own father. I am a tinker man, so I presume I just followed the good habits that my father has, discard the not very good habits, add in some of my own good habits(atleast I thought is good) and I'll be a very good father. Unfortunately, things are not that easy. I have that bad temper that my father has but I am unable to control it as well as my father! I am unable to devote the amount of time to kids as I would like to due to my poor time management. So here I am, despite knowing the pitfall of all those bad habit and behaviour, I ended up practising it. I find myself looking at the mirror and see the monster that I am. Why is it so hard to be a father? Probably I approach fatherhood the wrong way. Sigh!